Desperate

I have been surprised by how often I have met with Jesus in the times when I have been desperate. Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 12 v 9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why for, Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties, for when I am weak, then I am strong.

Ok I can't honestly say that I have delighted in hardships as Paul does. But I have definitely found that if I don't rush to move away from that desperate feeling, but let it sit with me, and bring it to Jesus; then He meets with me in beautiful ways. It may be exasperation at not being able to figure out how to respond to my child's behaviour or need; or compassion and helplessness at seeing poverty around our city; or sorrow for the hard times a friend is facing. All these situations make me desperate. I have a choice, to rush on into all the tasks for the day, to pretend that I am not moved by these issues because they are too much for me; or I can just let the desperation be my companion for a while - even as I am hanging the washing or driving go fetch my child from school. And invite the Holy Spirit into that place of desperation - birthing in me a prayer, an idea, an SMS, a response, a worship song, or something else that affirms that I am connecting with the Father's heart.

Jim Cymbala in his book Fresh Wind, Fresh Power (page 19) writes: 'God is attracted to weakness. He can't resist those who humbly and honestly admit how desperately they need him. Our weakness, in fact makes room for more of His power.'

So I encourage you, the next time you feel desperate, don't run from this uncomfortable feeling or drown it out too quickly with a cup of tea or coffee. Bring it to Jesus in the stillness of your heart, even whilst you are chasing your 3 year old around the garden or whilst changing that nappy. You'll be surprised at how He will respond in the midst of the joyous chaos of life.